|||||Pennywise - Knocked Down||]|
So, apparently I haven't updated this thing for 91 weeks. I'm surprised I even remembered it existed. My bad.
Reading back through that shit I've realised that so much has changed, not at all limited to myself. The idea of landscaping quickly went down the drain. I don't even think I wanted to do that in the first place, just a permanent fix to a temporary problem of employment, perhaps.
And now I find myself halfway through a Diploma of Financial Services/Planning (never, ever take this course - it'll bore the shit out of you), sitting in American Express, being overworked and underpaid. It doesn't exactly suck, $700 a week couldn't possibly suck; even if it could be a little better.
I've realised recently that I've lost a lot of friends along the way, too, due to inactivity and apathy in my life as of late - All I do work, drink, sleep, repeat. Really not so bad, being drunk is great, but I don't get out enough, god damn it. The only times I do get out is on a Friday night when I escape the wrath of her at the pub with friends from work. And even then I haven't completely escaped her wrath. Constant phone calls, SMSs, etc.
And the god damn real estate hasn't gotten back to me yet. It's been like... three days, and still no response, damnit. Why is it so god damned hard to find a place to live? No one told me it would be this difficult, I feel ripped off. I wish I was 17 again living at home without having to worry about this sort of shit because it's making me extremely irritated, not to mention anxious about whether or not I ever will find a place to live; or continue living on Jake's couch. Not that that's a problem, but there's a complete lack of room to move, and more often than not I'm the only person around to talk to. And when you begin to talk to yourself as a means of intelligent conversation, it tends to get a bit worrying, doesn't it? Are you crazy, or do you just not like anyone? Or is nobody worth talking to? Maybe I'm the problem. /selfdeprecation.
Is there anybody else's couch I can live on for a little while?